Stop letting people tell you what to do. When you realize that you alone have to bear the responsibilities for your actions, you then you have to face reality then. Don't give another person your reality. You don't have to let them bully you around. Say no, and get back. I think its mighty funny how running you around is ok, but running around doing things I need to do is not. It's a risk, it's social distance, but you weren't saying that at the store. You weren't saying that at the doctor. You are selfish, and that's ok. You need to get that straight with yourself. I'm not interested in being a flusey or allowing you to minister hate to me. I'm not interested in finding out why you don't want to act appropriate. You don't want to be reasonable. You want me to sit here and suffer. It's not that you're not a good person. It's that you had a nervous breakdown, and your mind is recessed into your childhood. So you're doing things a childlike way. I'm talking about a church, and you're fussing about how you are sick and vulnerable. You want to be sick and down to get the attention. You can get the attention other better ways. I'm not interested in finding out why you went this way to get attention. I come visit you every month. What child do you know to go visit their parents every month, and give their mother $100 every week for no reason? You're like trying to get more than necessary. I'm almost 35, I don't have time to be worrying about how you feel about my decisions. I realize now if I care too much about other's feelings about my decisions, then I'll be assed out. I won't have anything. I won't be anything. The reason is I am not acting on my own best interest. I'd be doing things for other people. If you don't like what I'm doing then. No. You need Lord Jesus. You don't need more things, more food, or more friends. You need The Lord To Help you.